30 Day Challenge Day 8

Something you’re currently worrying about

Figured this is fitting since it’s 7:30 and I’ve been awake for at least an hour and a half doing nothing but dwelling.

If you don’t know me by now, then you don’t know that I worry about EVERYTHING. I am a really anxious person, so I’m usually worrying about any number of things at any point in the day. 

I am currently stressing out mostly about finding a new job. My hours at work might have been flukely raised this this week, but soon they will go down again. We’re talking like 9 hours a week. Even with the amount of money I get paid, it will be tough to survive off that little money until May. But I also don’t know what kind of jobs to apply for other than administration or other retail positions. It stresses me out a lot.

I also worry about boys (yeah yeah) and whether I did the right thing ending my last relationship or wondering if I’m being too pushy in another situation or if maybe I should just sequester myself somewhere where I can’t deal with any boys at all. I worry that there’s something wrong with me and my inability to fall in love. I worry about watching everyone else falling in love around me while I become a bitter cat lady.

I worry that I’m eating too poorly and that I am going to balloon. I worry that I am wasting the best years of my life. I worry about why Justin cut me out of his life without warning. I worry my cat will get sick.

Ugh. I am going to go to the gym now and try to work these worries out of me.